So What Wednesday

So what if I'm just trying to get down to a weight where I feel comfortable and don't want to be a body builder or fitness competitor.  Sure I'd like to wear a bikini in the privacy of our boat but if I can't I can't.  It's not like I'll be flaunting one soon no matter my size due to insecurity issues.

So what if I'm not jumping on the clean eating bandwagon.  I like to have all things in moderation.  Sure, I feel better when I'm eating well but it's about 80/20 at my house.  I don't eat white bread or pasta and I will have fruit or veggies in place of chips but I'm only setting myself up to fail if I say anything is completely off limits.

So what if I want a diet pop every now and then.  I know I can go months without it and I've heard how it's harmful for me but I like it.  And so what if I say "pop" and not "soda".

So what if my kids have me running this way and that all week and every.single.weekend for the next couple of months.  It's our normal and even though some say we are spoiling them, we don't ask them to pay for the activities so they need to keep their mouths shut.

So what if I feel like an 80 year old because my hip is out due to 6 days straight of Jillian.  I'm not taking time off and I'm not seeing my chiropractor because it will just happen again.

So what if I said I wasn't letting the scale define me and I was all poopy pants this morning when I peeked and it hasn't changed an ounce since Friday.  I know I'm doing the right thing and it will catch up but week 1 is usually a big one for me.